THOUGHT OF THE MIRACLE CHILD : I am trapped in a bubble.The people around me think that my life is vibrant as the bubble appears to be full of colours,but alas from inside it is hollow,filled with nothingness.I am eroding in suffocation and the world is celebrating!!

i saw the lonely sun drowning in the sky! (still from my farmhouse)

collosium

We often say that mom you won’t understand …forget it you won’t understand. But have you ever bothered to think that why cant she understand? She could understand your needs when you were few months old, unable to utter a single word. A single gesture could make her understand what you need.
It is actually not about not understanding it is about what you wish to do in order to make her understand.
Sometimes I just wonder when people say, love is so beautiful. Being in love makes you feel celestial. And the parents become a long forgotten story. I just sometimes wonder, how someone you have known for twenty months, be more important than one who has loved you for twenty years. Yes, love is beautiful indeed but only if you understand the silver lining of love and lust.

I feel life is all about your mother. Actually life is like a journey of a rocky island. First it is born from the mother sea like a baby from any life form. She is thrilled to give birth and splits her organs to make space for her child. It starts to rise from the mothers drapes. The mother is always protective and tries to hide its kid from the peculiarities of life. She sacrifices her personal calm and peace and from disturbances that can create enough waves within her to hide her kid so that the dangers can be avoided about which the child is unaware. Initially the kid is insecure and hides in the mother’s breast very easily.
But gradually it grows and stands towering rebelling and repelling its own creator, mother. It abuses and physically repels the mother. It tries to destroy the mother’s caring waves which she wants to bestow upon him. Yet she thinks it is a craving to explore new things around her and she forgives her child. And the kid unknowingly keeps hurting his mother.
And finally, a time comes when the kid joins another island. They join together and try to restrict mother. In fact they restrict their mother so that she can’t even put her hand on the body of her son. whenever she wants to send her loving waves to the island t wash the dirt off her son, the soon tries to repel it, breaks the hand and forces her to retreat. But a mother is like the epitome of affection she keeps trying and sometimes during high tides full of emotions showers herself on the high rocky island. The mothers thirst is satisfied for a while. You must have wondered why the sea is so calm after high tide. I hope now you know why.
But nature has got her own set of rules. It makes sure that with time the mother remains strong enough and the kid gradually erodes. It is hit and re hit by the waves of the sea and finally withered into small particles of sand that are lead back to the sea bed. But there are also sons that remain so gradual in their gradient that the mother easily can reach every point of his body and there forms the mountains like Himalayas……truly respecting its origin and deep routed enough..always remembering where he rose from..always respecting the mother’s affections.
So if you have a problem with your mother, the problem is within you.

epitome of identity crisis!!

1.Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it?


i have symmetrical scars just above my eyes,all thanks to my habit of picking up fights


2.What does your phone look like?


i had bought a sleek and slim l7i last year but it has been converted into a touchpad ...actlly the first three layers of its keypad has been peeled off....and it looks like an ugly gadget.


3.What is on the walls of your bedroom?

on the left wall there is a huge shelf for my novels!!to the right i have a poster proclaiming
"no bulshit in my room please"

4. What is your current desktop picture?

Ishani

5. Do you believe in gay marriage?

no!!

6. What do you want more than anything right now ??
CROSSROADS should be a grand hit.

7. What time were you born?
afer POKHRAN nuclear test 10:47

8. Are your parents still together?

yeah

9. Last person who made you cry?

pramath

.10. What is your favourite perfume/cologne??
no personal favourites


l1. What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?

glittery black and eyes should be watery and black

12. What are you listening to?

skidrow and iron maiden ...blood brothers

13. Do you get scared of the dark?

darkness in life is killing bt otherwise darkness is a support when i like to be true me...u don't need to wear faces!!

14. Do you like pain killers?
not the tablets but yeah i depend on lot of painkillers like music and journals i write....they heal!!

15. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
nope!! i have done that couple of times successfully but these days i don't want people around ......i am happy with my memories!

16. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
chocolate brownie and vanila icecream topped with choco sauce

17. Who was the last person who made you mad?
pramath sometimes irritates a lot

18. Who was the last person who made you smile?
smiles faded long back!!

19. Is someone in love with you?
yeah a couple of them but unfortunately i have become a huge sponge...people try to send huge tides of emotions expecting me to send it baack but alas!!!.....and i am filled with a sense of guilt for that!