This is my last blogpost......as my albatross is going to take off!

DESTINY IS A POWERFUL WORD. You can discard it with the hefty and obscure interlocution of faith and confidence and you claim that you are swimming in the river of life in the direction you want to. But to be very honest you realise that you are not swimming, instead you are flowing. It is not your will that is deciding for you but the current of the river does it. And since you are comfortably numb you don’t realise that your definition of freedom has been gradually altered.
Even I was one amongst the swathe but as I say destiny is a very powerful word it cooed to me in my ears “stop being comfortably numb welcome to existence!”
The life began with a splendid show as I started as one happy and enthusiastic sailor who wasn’t aware of the enriched and vibrant life of the sea. Life was bright, sunny, cloudless and gentle wind blew. I had plenty to prove and plenty to learn. But before I could grow into an experienced sailor with a throttle of confidence I experienced the prowess of destiny. Destiny is a powerful word I believe.
Suddenly cold wind started to blow and it grew dark. I looked at the growling and roaring sea and prayed to calm down. But alas a strong tyrannous and ghastly storm took me on its strong wings of wind and dumped me to some unknown land.
The sea that I had as the family refused to take me back into it. I felt awful. I wanted to prove that I am his own. I slashed my wrist and down came the stream of blood that dropped to the sea. But I was flabbergasted when the blood refused to mix with the salty sea water. Then the sea roared at his top of the voice that the blood I always believed was flowing in my veins had come from the salty sea water, is not actually its. Because the blood is not capable to show its royalty. I a failed sailor can’t be mighty sea’s son. The sea humiliated me saying I belong to some rotten marsh that has ceased to exist. I was ripped into pieces, my soul howled in pain but I tried my best to hide my anger and agony. Every night I promised myself I won’t cry till next night. And no one will get to know about my torment and anguish. But destiny is a powerful word….
I said nothing but my slashed wrist screamed a lot. I was back sailing in the sea.
The sea got harsh than before, it was hot and cruel .Water was every where but all salty, it reminded me of the blood I never belonged to and so I decided I will never drink and I drank my own blood when I was thirsty. I was left in seclusion.
Then came a day when a very strong and beautiful albatross came to my withered boat and sat. It said nothing but I felt it was here to be for me. Here to take me away from this cruel sea. and I started dreaming of living with him under his wings.
It touched my wound and miffed. And it gradually started to heal. He allowed me to sleep under the soft canopy of wings. All the suffering was gone(ALL!!)
My faith grew stronger day by day that this truly belongs to me and the albatross stayed. He said nothing but his silence let my hope grow. I thought maybe I should learn to listen to the silence and I tried my best.
And one day the albatross said he is not going to stay here forever and started to spread its wings to take the flight. He said he has too many things to do and he can’t concentrate on me right now. He said he has a future to look forward to. And I couldn’t say anything because he was correct. I was one abandoned kid who belongs to no one. And it is not the albatross that destiny had sent for me. It wasn’t his fault but where was I wrong?
Probably no one has the answer too. Because as I said DESTINY IS A POWERFUL WORD!! I wish I could prove my saying wrong but I have no albatross by my side to do that!
So here existed the blog for the albatross who made me a different person altogether. And now when he is about to fly I am not strong enough to keep visiting the corner where my albatross sat, so I am shutting this corner forever. I am not going to write, something I use to love the most. This is the punishment I deserve for myself.