MY IDOL:: PRAMATH MALIK

MY IDOL:: PRAMATH MALIK
HE NEVER SHOWED ME A PATH TO FOLLOW BUT ALWAYS INSPIRED ME TO MAKE ONE FOR MYSELF!!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Even i was in love with you!!

Isn’t it obvious?
Sometimes it is not!
Expressing becomes more important than loving.That is what happened to them.

Silence suffocated the relationship. It rusted like anything and now it’s all over the boy. Sometimes the rust drops in public and glimpse of wounded soul shows up all red and fresh blood dripping.
She was a magnet and he was a boy with complex soul.

So how did it happen?
Well it was not a perfect love story where everything happened by the cupid struck Adam and Eve. She was already with someone else and the boy was with the match made in heaven.

Though his match had already gone to heaven.
Was her soul waiting for him there? Well this is something even I cant answer. 
But he was no angel to wait to meet her in there. He lived here in this world to live each and every moment. After her death he had gone a little heartless and rude but he wanted to live.

He sketched his life with full perfection. Every year had a plan, every month had an ambition, everyday had an aspiration and every moment had a dream, a dream to make it big.
No matter how black his hands became with the pencil and charcoal that he used to sketch he kept doing it. The mob called him selfish, cunning, fame hungry and everything he possibly could be ranted about as. Because everyone saw the ashes falling down spreading dirt around the canvas but no one knew about the painting.
And one day he decided to have her in his painting of life.

Why?
Not even the boy knew the answer to this.
She was totally different from his painting .She was full of energy,always dancing. Chirping like a child on small things. “Laughing out loud” was an expression made for her. 
She was not the perfect of all yet she was great in her own ways.

She hated color less things; even her pasta had red sauce in it. Life was not a painting for her; it was a dream where you can be happy in spite of all odds. 
Add all the spices in a dish that’s when you learn how can variety taste in life.

Small things made her happy.
Long bridal dresses which she never bought, bunch of red roses that he brought for her, red wine, fine dine, small colorful markets where she could buy cute things which had no use at all, rainbow socks and pink anklets, green odd pullover she use to wear behind which she use to disappear.

Her first love was her year old cousin and her best buddy was an uncle who danced on the stage and made her laugh over life. One girl for whom your balance in the phone was more important than the balance in your bank account.

She taught people to dance and she learnt from within.
Dancing was like a form of celebration in short pulses. If you want to feel something dance it out.
But she taught me more than just dance. She taught him that life is not about being a perfectionist so that everyone loves you its about giving so much that people love you even for your imperfections.
She said that life is not a race where you just have to win its about those pit stops where you have to make sure you hug your loved ones.

And she stopped and filled the painting with beautiful colors, added new shades to them with every turn and corner in life and made it beautiful.
She was like dew that refreshes the life of a leaf and vanishes with the first ray of sun. She also has vanished!
But her memories are like a song to him that he secretly wishes to be played again and again in his mind She is like a beautiful landscape visible out from the window of the moving train and you don’t want to disappear, but it does.
probably thats what the beauty of life is.
He still has that painted canvas but colors are fading away and this post is an attempt to try to relive those moments and hope that someday it will be repainted with the starry glitters again.





Monday, December 13, 2010

hyderabad blues.

Some men are made men,some transform into men,but some never let their boy go from within!

There are hidden layers to them.
He is one such human being that appears like an onion,you peel every layer and it appears totally different from the penultimate one.one layer says he wants to be the guy who studies to make sure his parents expectations are met.The inner one says make the woman your top priority.And the core says he wants peace in life.
And what about the complex layers in between, the layers which have thumb impressions of friends and people you cant even call friends.
some deep impressions!
Well there are some such impressions which makes his soul blue.oceans of thoughts that creates so much turbulence within him that sometimes he thinks he is drowning.
some figs that make the core.some twigs that help him float.
But twigs can help no more as the boy wants to be the man that needs no one to support,
probably because he wants to show that he needs no one to make sure he is alright,
because he is the one who makes things right in every ones life.

why am i blessed.

basic ingrideints of happy life;

  • very supporting parents: well mine are too good to be true.they ask me what is to be done in my life
  •  very good career: this everyone can have different parameters,sometimes being a peon also makes you happy so by that way i am about to have an MBA degree after an enginnering degre what else do i want.
  • good friends: well i have alwyas been confused about them that should i call them friends or my own brothers. because they have behaved the way that sometimes its simply unbelieavble that they are just friends.
  • good city too live:well i have Mumbai.
  • good finacnial support: thanks to my people i have it.
  • good girls around: well i have plenty around 
is there something else we should have ?

Sunday, December 5, 2010

there lived a rude boy.

I met this boy at one odd town
if not fair he was brown
he did glitter but was not gold.
always loud but was not bold.
there lived a rude boy.

he came and went
with everyone did time he spent.
they know him no one did swear,
as he was not what he did appear.
there lived a rude boy

his friends said his soul was cold
at least to peers that's what was told.
with emotions no one wanted to share
as they thought he dint care.

there lived a rude boy.
he laughed in groups all the time
devil may care that's what he rhymed
deep down he cared a lot
but he had no emotional spot.
there lived a rude boy.

cities came and cities went
where in journey of life the years he spent.
he ate his food and paid his rent.
but never were his problems lent.
there lived a rude boy.

deep down he was scared of rejection
always projected an image of perfection.
so no one could ever understand
that his dishes were also bland
there lived a rude boy.

in him was white sad pain.
that rushed through his vein
they said his laughter never died
but i did see the laughs lied,
with every breath he cried
there lived a rude boy.