outrageous

i am tired of hypocritical bullshit.the so called relationships,the bond,strength of threads that we have tied around each other but actually its a cobweb to alternate reality.will this socializing ever stop.I am just exhausted looking at all this.

especially when the college is getting over and everyone wants to just boast around and speak about their acquaintances they had,everyone wants to be more established and less criticized and if fortunate enough even loved more than ever before.

all relationships are improving with an accelerated pace.the enemies neutralized insignificant befriended and friends were no less than beloveds.

but you know what nothing has really changed no matter how hard you try,because your habits may change but your perceptions have gone so deep inside you it can never change,like always it has to get dirty as soon as you try flushing some reality into each others face.and i don't have to go far to look for examples i am a living master to this and even observing many around.

come on man whom are we kidding?

its really funny you pretend to be good to me i pretend to be good to you.and the pathetic part both of us know we are pretending.

like many claim the only solution to this is "just be yourself". how many are we talking about out there fall to this category.

like Amartya sen says...most people are other people their thoughts some one else opinion their lives a quotation.

and you know what i wish for myself ,that please i become that strong that that i go so high that i am inaccessible or i go that low that people find me dirty to access.

but i am no different i am a social entity just like any other man.the only difference is one step of realization that i have taken.have i gone one step ahead or one step behind i cant figure out but yeah its definitely a step different.